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What am I feeling today?
- Lord, it all bubbled up again today. It happens at the end of every semester. A bunch of work piles up. My psyche gets sick and I fall into sexual temptation. I have had this simple ARTH project due since last Tuesday. How have I not mustered the strength to finish. I would have had an exponentially better week and this binge of pornography surely would have been avoided. What is wrong with me in this area of my life? Why does it happen every semester? Why haven’t I learned the skills yet to avoid it? Lord, why is there something so self-destructive within me, and what is it, and how can I fix or heal it?
- I am on my own. No one will fight my battles for me. I don’t even have to tell anyone I am close to the things I have been struggling with. I likely will because that is just who I am. I hate carrying the weight of my sins alone. But ultimately, my fate is in my hand at this point, and I do believe my fate is determined by my character.
- I have obviously been avoiding this ARTH assignment. I simply can’t muster the strength to face it. I need to convince myself that it is what I want to do. If I only do and only enjoy doing things that I willfully accept, choose and want to do. Then, simply all I need to do is tell myself all the reasons why my ARTH project is the only thing I want to be doing right now.
- Things that I feel I need to do spiritually integrate into my life:
- Fasting every Tuesday and/or Thursday.
- Daily reading of Bible, plus other deep literature.
- Read a Sermon and rest every Sunday or Saturday.
- Also, silent meditation every day probably.
- And prayer too.
- If I do these thing I feel I will be better able to live better.
- Lord, please forgive me for my sins. Help me to repent. In order to repent I must right my wrongs and turn from my sin.
- The most important wrong I need to right is my not turning in that project. Think of all the sin that was had in avoidance of merely carrying that load. Forgive me for my weakness Lord.
Evening Question, What Good have I done to day?
And, What have I done Poorly to day?
Prayer to End Your Day?
What can I do and do better tomorrow?